Hey, guys.

Here's an update, because I don't do it very often.

LIFE:
Well, James left and Black Dot is visiting, but passing quickly, I hope. I can't be more specific than that, other than telling you that neither of them are people. They're both psychological.

MUSIC:
Performed my poetry at CoffeeHouse last month. Yes I write poetry, yes it's on DeviantART, and no I'm not going to tell you where. It went well. The Girl was there, and it was a leap in our friendship. Stellar.
Going to my first show this Friday, The Pocket Trio's CD realease. I was invited by my Gr12 firends. Yes She' going to be there.
The Cat Empire in a few weeks, and I'm totally stoked.
Bassoon is also good.
That band I was trying to get into rejected me without an audition, simply because I'm not in their studio. But if that's their attitude, I don't care.


RANDOM:
I went to my middle school yesterday, at 2. The school ends at 2:45.
I didn't expect to be treated all high and mighty, but when I left I was friends with all the staff, and we were all sad to part. Or so I thought.
I went into the office and saw the secretary, who used to call me dear, and ask me what illness I had. (I was always sick last year). When I went in i said, "Hi!!!!" And she looked at me and just sort of said "Oh, hi how are you." so i said good, and asked if I could walk around and say hi to teachers. And she said in this really rude way "You'll have to come back at 3." I walked there, 30mins from my house in the cold. I had nowhere to go. So I sat on a bench freezing for an hour. (I was picking up my friend who was there for take your kid to work) I guess I was kind of hoping to see my ex-girlfriend. I didn't see her, and my favourite teacher just said, "hey anna! how's school!" but there wasn't much conversation. And I walked out of the class after and I was looking for my friend so I called her on my cell. Just as I was listening to it ring, one of my old teachers walked out of the staff room. She always hated me, but near the end we were friendly. I waved and mouthed "HI!!" really excited. She just looked at me. I expected that. Then when we were both at opposite ends of the hall she turned and said "Hey, um, Ms. Anna, you're still in my school so you're going to put that cellphone away." I thought she was joking but I turned to see her face and she looked angry. So I slowly closed the phone and she said "Thank you."
No hello, no nothing. I guess I expected people to still trust me, or, make and exception because I'm Anna, and everyone knew me. Well. I hate that school. I always did I just always defended it. And now I'm reminded why those were the worst three years of my life. They treat students like imposters.

JAMES:
I went to the courthouse with my dad for take your kid to work and I was in the bathroom in the family court section and this woman walked in and just started crying. And everyone was just trying not to make eye contact. I was washing my hands and you know what I realized? I realized that, no one was going to comfort that woman. No matter how innocent or guilty she was, she was going to cry alone that day. Her we were, women who worked so hard to find our places in history, and what was this? we weren't even coming together. Woman to woman, there was no comfort and no connection. They were going to leave her there and give her no strength, no reassurence that she needed. She was a human and we all told ourselves that she was a stranger, not to get involved, and that it was none of our buisiness. We forgot that she was just a woman, just a human, Like ourselves and we chose to forgte her.
Not I. I refused to join in the action of ignoance an I went to her and I touched her arm and I said, "do you need a hug?" and she nodded and I hugged her an I prayed for her to the God that I don't believe in. And I whispered "it's okay." And I managed to connect with her, woman to woman and I stepped out of that box and gave comfort without becoming involved.

People, don't you see? Oh, James, don't they see?

GAY:
I guess I never told you people. I dated that 16-year-old and we broke up right beofre our Fourmonthaversary. Because I realized that I really don't like guys, and there was a reason I felt weird when I was with him.
Came out to more people. Apparently some girl thinks I'm gorgeous. Some other girl liked me until I turned her down and she got all pissed and This-converstaion-is-over-ish. And the Girl totally likes me, I can tell. Do I think it'll work out? No. I don't think she'd take the risk of long distance. Yet.
Chick-magnet, much?

AND:
If you read the whole story in Random, then I applaud you. Coment please; it's nice to know I'm not ranting to thin air.


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